today’s surprise was a total success but im not feeling happy.
in fact, i didnt enjoy myself at all.
i find there’s a huge communication barrier in us now , after for so many years hanging out together.
hmm maybe it will just be temporaly, but i definitely won be joinin them for quite a period of time.
maybe it’s just me. maybe it’s bcoz of them.
i don feel part of them now. can’t even speak comfortably.
i guess there’s some kind of negative energy in my body, recently my words can become harsh and mean, even sometimes i don mean it that way.
i used to tolerate and compromise, but now i can get angry easily just becoz of a very tiny small matter.
can somebody tell me how to get rid of these unwanted energy?
im so tired. so tired of working, studyin, and facing all these fin probs.
that kind of exhaustion, sometimes it can make me forget to breathe.
i wish i could have a getaway to anywhere and not coming bak here.
i wish i could get a whole new perception and have a new kickstart.
i wish i could just run away.
