getaway

today’s surprise was a total success but im not feeling happy.
in fact, i didnt enjoy myself at all.
i find there’s a huge communication barrier in us now , after for so many years hanging out together.
hmm maybe it will just be temporaly, but i definitely won be joinin them for quite a period of time.
maybe it’s just me.  maybe it’s bcoz of them.
i don feel part of them now. can’t even speak comfortably.
i guess there’s some kind of negative energy in my body, recently my words can become harsh and mean, even sometimes i don mean it that way.
i used to tolerate and compromise, but now i can get angry easily just becoz of a very tiny small matter.
can somebody tell me how to get rid of these unwanted energy?

im so tired. so tired of working, studyin, and  facing all these fin probs.
that kind of  exhaustion, sometimes it can make me forget to breathe.

i wish i could have a getaway to anywhere and not coming bak here.
i wish i could get a whole new perception and have a new kickstart.
i wish i could just run away.

scary!!

i have this weird and terrifying dream that bothers me the whole day.
it was about smth really bad happened to my high skol senior.

the scenes were tremendously scary, and they are still clearly running in my mind.
its more scarier esp when its somebody that u haven been seeing for more than 2yrs.
y all of a sudden?

although it’s only a dream, it still scares me out of hell.
PLEASE. i hope i will never have this kind of dream again.
if not i rather be insomniac and remain awake for next few weeks.

什么都不是

因为我什么都不是。

我开始不懂得表达自己，开始不想和任何人讲话。

原来是我变了。

busy!

10 mins.
let me finish this post in 10 mins.
wah damn tired i seriously squeezing out all my energy juice
class, teachin, sports, online and assignments.
its my daily routine basically. daily as in i have fewer than 3 hours to rest.
average sleeping time also reduced to 6 hours plus.
work hard, but not playing harder. no way~!! nooo. ><”

my want-to-do list is getting longer! wanna do so many things but due to financial constraint, not spending money would be the wiser decision. hahaha wtf i’ll still spend.
10. mins. already.
gud. night!!

p/s: wanna tell 5L tat i miss them so badly!!! miss them so much T__T can i like tell them abt my story everyday. FML.

day off

i saw this in my daily tarot again:

If that almost-but-not-quite relationship seems always to be on the verge of boiling over, it’s time to take another look.

a very gud piece of advice.

no working today! no teaching nor doing paperworks!
this is incredibly fantastic because i hadn been resting for months (includin weekend yes sat and sun fml)
had a great day with aud and gy! kacau-ed kevin and violet as well haha
hopefully we can hang out often like today too (:
whenever gy’s there, i will be definitely laughing non stop there like nobody business.
aud too. damn stupid and funny our conversation! wtf
i feel completely overwhelmed by the bond of our friendship. (=D)
hmm i wanna take the challenge and rock-climbing  again!
hoo hoo

new lists of mine:
1. re-do law notes (becoz i lost them all)
2. marketing assignment due next friday.
3. marketing resubmission due next friday also.
4. macro2 – do past year ques 07 n 08
5. settle the itune prob
6. chg my lens
7. treat my aunt to lunch
8. toy story 3!!! <3<3
9. good food =D (broke)
10. shopping (perhaps window wtf)

okay. after writing all this shits, i shall get back to reality, take my books out and start studying tmr.
and yea, no working tmr. fuck paperwork. love the trees.

relieved ^.^

miracles do happen!!
my senior’s fren willing to borrow me law textbook until end of this semester!
which means i don have to buy NEW photostat copy nor get the second-hand book!!
wtf this is so awesome

*thank god**thank god** thank god**

ahhahahaha.

Boooo

: love to put all my fringe up recently. coz its damn comfy^.^
: into camwhore again. ^.^

^.^ very relived now.

fluctuation

i’m not done with it yet.
it takes time. Plenty of time… actually.
i just need a bit more. to let it go.

*pray *

p/s : can u hear me?

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hopeful one

i’m so happy today!!
*gud mood gud mood*
hahahaha even feeling happy talking to myself wtf

=DD

apart from the law textbook case, everything seems well to me today.
i went to 1U to settle my phone prob and my new line FINALLY can be activated within 24 hours.
my previous line with the outstanding balance also has resolved already.
CLEAR~! haih no more trouble for me pls.

this morning during law lecture teacher gave back our mid term paper.
i was DAMN FREAKIN SCARED bcoz i didn’t do well for the paper
and before tat a friend of mine actually challenged me for the mid term test
we had a deal that whoever scored lower must treat the winner JAPANESE FOOD.
he said he wan shashimi wtf T_T
and he was like studying damn hard there omg then i started to regret for making the deal.
so just now when teacher gave back the paper, i was damn nervous. i can see he also nervous wtf.
i dun even dare to noe his marks. til when we exchg our paper, ahaha i got one mark higher than him!
ahahahaha wtf!!!

**wave the victory flag** dance in excitement~!** =D

actually i didn’t score tat well also.
1 mark difference. wah scary.
anyway i don really mind about the belanja thing la, wanna thank him instead for triggering my kia-su-ness to study.

i saw this in 1 u when i was about to go home.

fruity japanese FOOD

i think i see smth hehe

so many great snacks arnd!!
and i saw hello panda a.k.a my most desired wanted favourite snack hehehe.
now they r having promotion so the snacks r pretty affordable.
oh feel like buying all home but nt enuf money. even their instant noodle is like damn nice.
=))

hmm. so yea.

loyal consumer @.@

the sad thing is, i really lost my law textbooks and notes which i have to start all over again and re-do everything.
i was still being hopeful this morning and asked arnd/ looked arnd/searched arnd but haih.. i don think i can find them back again.
the sem is gonna end soon but now still have to buy a new one coz need to bring it for final.
so many notes to photostat. WTF wei.
aish i seriously couldn’t forgive myself for losing the book. y have to be law summore. genius me.
can’t go out anymore must stay at home and finish up law shits then. dunno can finish in time anot.

wad i hope for now is somebody(senior, whoever) can offer me his law text book for free  or super low price..
*pray hard*

p/s: u doing well there? *stares*thoughts*stares

my law book T__T

i ate subway twice today. for dinner and brunch. omg wtf.
my whole stomach is full of carb and fats now. (too much mayo)
confirm fat this time. i die.

haih just now ate so much its because too stress.
freakin depress wei coz i lost my LAW text books with a whole stack of law notes.
in other words, i lost ALL. everything about law. all gone case fml.
need to use it tmr for class and fri for extra class, but no book no notes how.
hence i skipped law this morning. but this is not going to work for the next few weeks.
i need the book during final also. open book test.
and my own notes!! through sweat and tear..T_T

HAI YO. its all MY FAULT FML
how can i be so careless??!!?

all i noe is how to eat only. eat eat eat. fuck.

p/s: i’ll miss you!!! very much! =DD <3<3